I write this as I adjust to stronger glasses I usually wear for driving only. My other glasses had “scratch guard” that rubbed right off. There are no coincidences. I was fighting change, but my soul was pushing me into bigger vision.
You might feel stuck in the middle of things that are dying and things that are being born.
You’re grounding underfoot is changing. It’s like a mini earthquake. Hold on tight.
You can taste the sweetness of glorious new beginnings, and the bitter taste of endings.
There’s anxiety as one door is closing, and the other door isn’t quite open yet, and you can’t find that door anywhere.
This isn’t a moment for being harder on yourself. Or feeling like a failure. It’s only change, and usually necessary change at that. It’s GROWTH, my Dear.
There is no map.
Most of the biggest transitions in my life I have lived through somehow. Some I didn’t even see coming. But to a creative person being stagnant is worst then no change. That’s boring. There’s no material there to work with.
Take another breath.
You’re being guided even though it doesn’t feel that way. Those tiny whispers? That gut feeling? Those longings that keep punching at your belly? YOU know what to do, at least the next tiny step, even if it’s that one breath.
And what about all that stretching you are feeling? Yes, your legs feel longer, and your voice may be changing into a deeper tone. Just see it as a second or third or fourth puberty. That turned out okay and you weren’t sure then.
Ask yourself, “What do I REALLY want to do?”
You have what it takes. You will have what you need. There’s help even though you aren’t sure.
Much love and see you on the other side of this.
ACTIVITY TO INTEGRATE: Draw a map where you have been and where you want to go so you can see visually the big picture of the transition you are in. That drawn map might give you additional clarity.