It’s been too hot to sit in my yard. 104 degree days in Arizona make me woozy and my head wompy. I was surprised I’ve been getting guidance to find time to go outside anyway. When the girls and the turtle and I finally made it out to the yard, I was appalled by the amount of weeds there were. I think my rose bushes missed me; they were sad-looking. I plopped myself down on the rock floor and began pulling weeds one by one. Emma Lou, my basset girl came running over licking my face in excitement. She was so happy I was outside, finally. I felt embarassed, even a little guilty. Fairy girls NEED nature. It’s right up there with thrift-shopping, animals, and hugs. I hadn’t even noticed I was so disconnected with Nature until I saw the signs.
1. I’ve been neurotic. Now, keep in mind, I was half-raised by a neurotic, loving, worrying, jewish grandmother, so…I have my moments. But I was truly in “hamster wheel” thinking that went around and around with no resolution.
2. My energy was not grounded. I could tell this because my empathic sense was picking up EVERYTHING. I felt pulled into everyone’s story wanting to help and comfort. I couldn’t tell what was mine and someone else’s. It was just me flying around in the tornado like that cow in the movie TWISTER.
3. Because I was neurotic and not grounded, I was affecting my dogs who were worrying more too. They seemed much more relaxed from just a little backyard exposure.
4. I didn’t feel super creative. This is an abnormal state for me. I ALWAYS feel creative. There’s always ideas running around in my head of what I can make or do. I just didn’t feel like doing much of anything. It’s probably the heat, but definitely because I haven’t had yard time.
5. I was missing fairy energy. I only felt half joyful. A tiny, tiny bit silly. I needed to fill up my container with that good fairy buzz I get from being in the yard.
We hung out in the yard for a few hours and Sarah wandered around while Emma barked at the turtle trying to get him to play with her. The heat was rising so we made it to where we are now, hanging out on the couch with me writing. I think even a small dose of Nature is needed for me everyday to stay sane and happy. How about you?
Incidently, two more weeks until the Fairy Healing the Feminine online class. I am currently writing a cool lesson in picking weeds from your life. Go sign up now!