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Nasty fairy moment


I’m experiencing a nasty fairy moment. It could be the half a garlic bread I just scarfed down, or that I overslept this morning and had an amazing dream and had to wake up, or maybe just hormones. Nasty fairy moments are when I am not all positive, happy, and spiritual. Sometimes, they can feel good. After all, that is a lot of pressure to always be positive, happy and spiritual, right? Maybe I need nasty fairy moments.

Nasty fairy moments often include nasty feelings like envy, hostility, negativity, and just plain bitchiness. There’s often a high degree of self pity thrown in there. I’ll say things to myself like, “No one cares.” “Why try, it won’t make a difference.” “I’ve failed before.” These even feel prickly and icky.

I hate the thoughts the most and some can be quite cutting ones that surprise me. I would guess that although I’m mostly fairy, I am in a human body. 🙂

Way, way back, I had a design client from hell. No, really. As soon as she approached me, I had a bad feeling. I knew we’d have control battles when we fought over where we should meet. When I visited her home, she was highly specific about how close to the curb I should park. Needless to say, I did NOT follow my inner guidance at the time. In a very nasty confrontation, she told me I was not who I portrayed myself to be. I was a nasty fairy! And that’s when I discovered that part of me.

I look back at this moment, and now I chuckle. I am by far not lighthearted all the time, like you would think fairies would be. I have Scorpio in my Moon, so I am rather serious and intense in my emotions. I live life down into the layers. I have to work at the lighthearted thing. (Ironically, though, it must be in there, because most of my artwork is rather fun and whimsical.). So I always thought it funny that the Fairies had found me. But then, I look at my work with Nature like a little scientist diving in and trying to understand and learn, and mostly, discover. I would imagine, the Fairies aren’t always lighthearted all the time themselves. And I would guess, there are quite a few who are nasty little fairies at times.

(Of note, I was recently told I was the epitomy of joy. Okay, okay, my true soul is probably rather silly and maybe even joyful. I do have to admit.)

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I'm Ronni, a designing fairy living among the humans. I'm a writer, illustrator, and inventor who loves to share what I've learned to help others in a fun way, whether it's providing tools in my Help! I'm Sensitive series for the sensitive folk, Healing Fairy Alphabet Deck for connecting to your intuition through Nature, or the Idea Emporium for thinking like a designer to get out of boxes, I hope my creations help make life more fun and easier. I live in a treehouse with my beloved elf partner, giant ooh-yellow dog, a floppy bloodhound, and three step-fairies.