What I am learning…instead of lamenting on how I am and who I am, I need to embrace it. My soul is letting me know what I need to make me happy and when I explain away or tell myself my feelings aren’t spiritual, I miss out on important clues. What do I mean exactly?
1. I love variety and get bored easily, that is why I love design assignments, love creating a class, learning new things. When I am in a position of doing the same thing over and over, of course I’m unhappy. The new spiritual ideas floating around say you need to “fix” that unspiritual thought, but that’s untrue! Here’s a valuable clue to what makes me tick. I need to work with this, not paddle upstream by changing me. ( I love the True Colors system. When I read about it I found out that most Green’s feel that way).
2. I need alone time to touch base with myself and recharge. After reading the Introvert Advantage, I know that this is a truth for most folks like myself. It’s documented truth. If I try to force myself to be more social all the time like the rest of the world, I’m going to be one bitchy, nasty girl. My daughter is the opposite. She needs to be around people most of the time. She’s gotten alot more balanced and can now spend lots of time in her room. For a few years there I tried to accommodate her and be “out” more than “in”. It didn’t work. I overloaded most the time.
Without alone time I have no idea how I really feel. Then it’s not uncommon for me to say things like, “I didn’t even know I was angry.”
3. A big clue you aren’t taking the time to hear yourself is when you are screaming at the Universe, “Don’t you hear me!”, when you don’t feel your needs are being heard. This was big a realization for me. Why should the Universe listen to you when you don’t?
Today, listen to yourself. Accept the negative feelings! Let it out! Don’t rewrite them to sound positive or to be politically correct or so you only attract the positive. The positive is underneath all that gunk that needs to come out first. These are clues to what you need, people. I write this for myself as a reminder, as well as, to share with you.